God made us … so that we would search for God
and perhaps grope for God and find God—
though indeed God is not far from each one of us.
For “In God we live and move and have our being.”
God, this darkness is discouraging.
I don’t know where this is headed.
This tunnel feels deathly, a grave.
I grope and I do not find.
But you are not a hermit hiding.
You are not a small being
You are Being, my being.
I am not far from you: I am in you.
This darkness is you.
The empty air I feel, the wall, is you.
Even my groping is you, moving in me.
Even my sorrow is your yearning.
Breath prayer: + Here … you are +
—May 18, 2017