sometimes I seek the feeling I have faith
more than actual faith.
I want the feeling of your presence
rather than the will to live in harmony
with a grace I can’t always feel.
I want the feeling my prayers are being answered
more than trust that they are.
Knowing that joy is greater than a feeling,
deeper than a mood,
I lay myself in your hands,
accepting whatever feelings may come,
that by your grace I may seek only
to trust gratefully, to serve faithfully,
and to love freely.
September 7, 2021