Endurance

Consider the monarch,
beyond the miraculous stained glass
window of its wings, seashells of scales arrayed
light and dark, sunlight and night-black,
each in its place, gilding the meadow with its art;
beyond its legs, thinnest jointed, muscled hairs
that grasp and walk; or its tender, curled proboscis
that uncurls and reaches deep to drink of nectar;
beyond its thousand-paneled eyes, consider:
that it is here at all.
That these flimsy wings, these little plates of dust
that flap with such naive abandon, such feeble hope,
such confident weakness, and carry it hither and thither
with seeming helplessly random wandering,
have borne this creature through winds and currents,
around storms and cities and over superhighways—
and somehow, it is here.
That it is the great-grandchild of those famous pioneers
who flew south to Mexico, never having been there,
but who followed the wisdom passed down from
their great-grandparents, who flew north,
never having been here—yet it is here.
That this wisdom spanning seasons and continents
was carried by a caterpillar who, in the fullness of time,
wove itself a casket, crawled in, and devolved into mush—
just a soup of goo—and waited, until from the mush
a butterfly formed and grew, and in time
ruined its casket and emerged
and unfolded its ridiculously wrinkled wings,
still with the wisdom of how to get to Mexico
on those thinner-than-paper wings of black and gold
somehow preserved and carried from flower to flower—
and came to you.
Consider, then, when you feel overwhelmed,
and up against the odds, the likelihood
that by the grace that livens every living thing,
you too will endure.

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Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
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Live forever

             “I am the living bread that came down from heaven.
             Whoever eats of this bread will live forever;
             and the bread that I will give for the life of the world is my flesh.”
                         
—John 6.51

Jesus gives himself to us, his whole life,
his time, his energy,
even putting his body on the line,
his flesh given over to us for the sake of love.
And we take that love into ourselves,
that loving, physical presence,
and it becomes part of us, part of who we are,
just like our food does.
It fills us and becomes us.
So now we are the body of that love.
And it lives on in us. It lives forever.
And in love we give ourselves away to others,
our time and our energy and even our bodies,
given over for the sake of love,
and that love becomes part of them,
and it lives on, and on….
That love that is us
lives forever.

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Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
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Calling to you

Sit before the ocean and take in
how it reaches out to you over and over.
Notice how the wind moves around you,
making space for you.

The silence of the morning includes you.
The wildflowers in the pasture welcome your looking.
The evening breeze moves in and out of you
with comfortable familiarity.

Strangers in the street carry their wounds and dreams
in heavy plastic bags, not knowing what they’re waiting for.
Beyond the wall are broken hearts with room for you.
The noise of the city is not mindless but pleading.

Hear the world calling to you,
neither an emperor nor a beggar
but a lover, a spouse, calling you to come home,
to complete what longs to be whole.

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Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
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Eat and drink

             “Those who eat my flesh and drink my blood
             abide in me, and I in them.”
                         
—John 6.56

God is not a god of hearsay,
a virtual god, an outsourced god.
No remote, second hand, copy-of-a-copy god.
This religion isn’t about what you believe,
that paper religion, an idea you can think about.
This religion isn’t a recipe; it’s the meal.
Real food. You digest it.

Jesus is not explaining God. He’s feeding us God.
He is the bread of God.
You have to eat it.
It surrenders itself inside you,
becomes part of you.
Don’t just think about it;
don’t merely believe. Eat it.

Take him in, this Jesus bread.
Savor the aroma of his love, his grace,
the flavor of his trust in God and in you.
Wrap the mouth of your soul around him and eat.
See how he tastes on the tongue of your heart.
Bite off a chunk of that forgiveness,
chew it gratefully, and swallow it all.
Drink in that presence with you in every Gethsemane,
every Golgotha, drink it in and let it fill you.
Take all of who Jesus is into yourself.
Stuff yourself with him.

You are what you eat.

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Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
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Bones

These, on this pebbly shore,
four white stones beside each other,
narrow and peaceful,
are my fingerbones,
where they came to rest long ago.

There is my clavicle exposed
in the sagebrush root,
welcoming summer and winter alike.
My teeth sparkle in the glass case
of the jewelry store; I don’t mind
no one knows they were mine.

Look, you can see my intricate foot bones
embedded in this old stone,
how they stand out against the gray;
sacrum and ilium scooped out of the glacier;
femur and fibula fallen on the forest floor,
generously giving themselves
to moss and fungus and burrowing moles;
ladder of my ribs in the snow-laden branches
of the white pine, no longer needing to guard my heart;
and there in the stream a bed of my skulls,
no longer thinking so hard as the water flows over them.
That wisp of cloud passing overhead
is my breath of eons ago.

I see these things with eyes that are oceans,
through trees and rivers of nerves,
momentarily assembled from the chalk cliffs,
I, the bones of God.

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Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
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Hurtful encounter examen *


Reflect on an experience in which you were hurt or troubled
an interaction whose emotional impact has stayed with you.

What is the hurt I felt, or still feel?
Am I open to what my pain may teach me?
            I let the hurts come into my awareness,
            lift them up, and look behind them.


What gifts were at work in me during this experience?
What strengths, wisdom or grace assisted me?
How was I accompanied?
             I let these things come into my awareness;
             lift them up, and give thanks.

How was my shadow involved?
What was my part, that contributed to the trouble?
What wounds were at work in me?
Did hidden energies of fear, anger, or grief in me
shape what happened?
             I let these things come into my awareness;
             lift them up, seek healing, and accept forgiveness.


And what was beyond my control?
What would have happened no matter what I did?
What were the other person’s choices, not mine?
What do I need to let go of?
             I let these things come into my awareness;
             lift them up, and let them go.

What of love have I learned?
             I let these things come into my awareness;
             lift them up, and give thanks.


* I’m adapting the examen, an ancient prayer form contemplating how we have been both in and out of harmony with God. It’s often called an “examination of conscience; ” I call it an examination of consciousness, exploring both our light and shadow sides.

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Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
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Something kind

Concrete is so convincing,
and time and space so often unfriendly,
and the solid earthen mass
of your failures and aloneness
and the losses and embarrassments of any day
enough to wear down your resolve,
like the ruined face of the Sphinx,
that it is understandable
that you would be unsuspecting,
and even if you thought about it
doubt the likelihood,
that even in what is harsh or sorrowful
there might be something kind
reaching out to you from the world
shining within this one.

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Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
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Drawn

             No one can come to me
             unless drawn by God who sent me.
                         
—John 6.44


No one comes to Christ
inspired by the carnival barkers of evangelism,
or scared sinless by the fear of hell,
or set free by peer pressure, even most sweet and kind.

They come because they are drawn:
because there is Christ, before them,
beckoning, irresistible.

We can’t drive them to Jesus like a sheepdog,
or argue them close; but we can give them Christ,
give them love and forgiveness and encouragement.

There are ways—what are they? Look for them—
you can put in people’s lives what they’re hungry for,
as inviting as the smell of baking bread.

Bake the bread of love and offer it.
Open the door,
and let the aroma of grace work its magic.

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Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
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Violence

             The king said to the Cushite, “Is it well with the young man Absalom?”
             The Cushite answered, “May the enemies of my lord the king,
             and all who rise up to do you harm, be like that young man.”
                         
—2 Samuel 18.32

David fought a war against his own son,
but asked that Absalom be spared.
It did not go that way.

When we take up arms, even in the cause of justice,
we unleash violence that we can’t prevent
from returning to us.

Today is the anniversary of America’s bombing of Hiroshima.
The horrors we’ve been willing to inflict
do not promise to keep their distance from us.

Behind appeals to a “necessary evil” is the reality
that violence is never inevitable,
but the result of our failure to find a better way.

Pray for the humility to admit our faults,
the wisdom to imagine what we nave not seen,
and the courage to keep seeking new ways.

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Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
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Anger


             Putting away falsehood,
             let all of us speak the truth to our neighbors,
             for we are members of one another.
             Be angry but do not sin.
                         
—Ephesians 4.25-26

In this world of cruelty and injustice
it’s tempting to respond with anger.
But when you are angry, follow its thread.

You’re angry that things are not as you want them
and you feel powerless to change them.
But deeper than that is sorrow for those who are wounded.

Your anger comes from desire for power.
Your sorrow comes from compassion for others.
Let your anger lead you to your sorrow.

When you respond to injustice, even terrible evil, with anger
you are tethered to your own ego.
When you respond in sorrow you are rooted in God’s love.

And there, there in God’s broken heart,
weeping and powerless, in God’s crucified One,
is hope, and courage, and infinite power.

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Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
www.unfoldinglight.net
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