Jesus said to them, “Follow me
             and I will make you fish for people.”
             And immediately they left their nets and followed him.
                             —Mark 1.17-18

God, can I hear the call?
Do I listen?
Raise my head from my consuming tasks
to listen for another voice?
Do I recognize your voice when I hear it?

And when you call,
call me to service, to healing, to justice—
what do I need to leave behind to get up and follow?
What nets entangle me,
the familiar, the safe, the comfortable?
Will I let go of people’s kindness?
A sense of entitlement to peace and security?
Do I see the webs of injustice
that benefit me and hurt others,
entangling nets I have tended and mended—
can I let go?

Give me heart to let them go,
let them go,
let them go,
and get up
and follow you.

_______________
The Sea Today:

Beckoning,
pointing to a horizon
beyond, beyond…

__________________
Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
www.unfoldinglight.net

January 21, 2021

         Jesus said to them, “Follow me
           and I will make you fish for people.”
           And immediately they left their nets
           and followed him.
                                   —Mark 1.17-18

A people as one rise from fear and grief
and choose hope and justice.
People do rise.
People get up from familiar nets
and follow a leader into a future
unknown but trusted,
a new day— a gift of God
and the work of the people.

Every moment
we’re invited to leave the familiar.
Clouds still hover, the dawn comes slow;
but in the receding darkness
we bear no angry torches:
we raise candles of hope, the light of love.
We become the future we choose.
For a new day we give thanks
and and follow in a new way,
knowing for it to be a new day
we must become new people.
We celebrate, getting up
from what we know
and walking step by step
into what we don’t know
with the One
who knows us.

God bless us and lead us, for we need it deeply.

__________________
Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
www.unfoldinglight.net

January 20, 2021

Now after John was arrested,
Jesus came to Galilee,
proclaiming the good news of God.
—Mark 1.14

Watch the verbs: arrested… came… proclaiming.
The face-to-face of injustice and grace
is no coincidence.
Already in Mark’s first chapter
Jesus approaches the Cross.
The word of God’s disruptive grace,
the fierce and tender love
that undermines the Empire itself
is good news for bad times.
The Word neither hides from the world’s darkness,
nor succumbs to it—
the light shines in the darkness, the darkness,
and the darkness can’t overcome it.
It seeks the dark, and enters, and shines.

Breath prayer:
In darkness … light

_________________
Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
www.unfoldinglight.net

January 19, 2021

They have treated the wound of my people carelessly,
saying, “Peace, peace,” when there is no peace.
—Jeremiah 6.14

Martin reminds us in an unjust system
calling for “peace” and “unity”
simply protects the system,
justifies the injustice,
keeps the slaves enslaved.
Injustice will not let go till it is pushed;
the righteous choose to not go along with evil,
but to trouble it, to push back, to resist.
Liberation requires disruption:
a boycott, a freedom march, an Exodus.
It needn’t be violent. But it will disrupt.
It will disrupt abuse of power,
exploitation of people and living things.
It will certainly disrupt expectations,
habits, propriety, business as usual.
(They said to Jesus, “It is not lawful to heal…”)
It is not self-serving,
doesn’t turn opponents into enemies.
But it doesn’t make peace with cruelty.
It’s uncomfortable.

God, give me the courage
to disrupt injustice with love.

__________________
Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
www.unfoldinglight.net

January 18, 2021

    Nathanael asked him,
         “Where did you get to know me?”
         Jesus answered,
         “I saw you under the fig tree before Philip called you.”
                                  —John 1.48

The Beloved sees you. Knows you.
Inner you. Soul you.
Not the faults and failures,
nor your alibis,
not the gold and silver medals,
not what you or others
think of you,
but the soul inside the story,
the heart beneath the wounds,
what God created
and has always loved,
the Thou of you.

Seen without judgment,
known without blame,
named, beloved, treasured—
welcome it.

You can stop pretending.
Let yourself become
the one God knows.

__________________
Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
www.unfoldinglight.net

January 14, 2021

          But who can detect their errors?
             Clear me from hidden faults.
                                       —Psalm 19.12

I made a hurtful mistake yesterday, and I apologize.  In criticizing people with closed-minded, delusional thinking I paired them with people with schizophrenia. They are not the same, and it is hurtful to suggest that they are. Mental illness is not a choice, or something that one should confess or repent of. I am sorry for magnifying the stigma we have attached to mental illness. I acknowledge the hurt I caused by saying it, the hurt for people with mental illness to see themselves lumped in with people making bad choices. I am sorry for that. (It was in emailed versions, but I removed it here.)

Here’s the awful thing. I’ve long thought we should avoid using words like “sick” and “crazy” in criticizing people exercising poor judgment—it is deeply unfair to people suffering mental illness. But here I essentially made that very mistake. I did stigmatize mental illness. Maybe there’s something deep in my mind that does think poorly of mentally ill people. I hold, somewhere deep in my subconscious, a belief contrary to my beliefs! Fortunately I was invited to notice it, and I am grateful for people around me who wake me up, hold me accountable, and keep me honest. Thank you. Now I’m a little more aware.

This happens all the time. Our consciousness is a muddle of our own chosen values and the voices of our society that insinuate themselves into our minds like a virus. We hold contradictory beliefs. Sometimes we think things we don’t really believe. Here’s the thing: being wise or foolish, sensitive or mean, sexist or woke or racist or anti-racist is not a permanent state. It’s moment by moment. Even a committed anti-racist will sometimes have racist thoughts. It’s human. Hurtful voices run deeper in our subconscious than we know. We have to stay humble, vigilant and self-reflective. We have to give up being right, and take our critics seriously. We have to listen, confess, learn a little more, repent, and try to stay aware, ready to discover when we’re wrong.

For vigilance– mine and yours– I give thanks, and thanks as well for the grace to learn and move on to love mercy, to do justice, and to walk humbly with God.

Deep Blessings,
Steve

__________________
Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
www.unfoldinglight.net

January 13, 2021

Nathanael said to him,
           “Can anything good come out of Nazareth?”
           Philip said to him, “Come and see.”
                                 —John 1.46

We’ve already decided
no one from Nazareth should be taken seriously.
Let’s confess what I call our cultural fundamentalism:
the belief that there is only one truth, and we own it.
The belief that my group (however I identify it) alone matters,
and we alone are entitled to decide
what is Real, True and Important.
We will not be dissuaded from our illusions by facts,
because it’s not the truth but who says it that matters.
If the speaker is one of us and protects our entitlement
(and magnifies our grievance at the loss of that entitlement)
we will believe whatever they say.
But the voice of an outsider simply doesn’t matter.
We are entitled to define what’s True, Real and Important,
and they are not. No one from Nazareth.

It’s the way of religious fundamentalists,
conspiracy theorists, white supremacists,
and other like-minded people.
It’s the basis of racism, sexism, heterosexism,
and every form of discrimination,
behind every crusade, pogrom, witch-hunt and genocide.
Whites, Americans, men, Christians—we all suffer from it.

What’s the antidote? “Come and see.”
Humility. Willingness to hear another’s truth.
Listening. Taking the “other” seriously.
Attending most deeply not to those defending their entitlement,
but to those who have none.

God, help me listen deeply and humbly.
Help me see all people as real, as whole, beloved people.
Bid me always, “Come and see.”

__________________
Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
www.unfoldinglight.net

January 12, 2021

Beloved, you have not given up on us.
Shine your light within us.
Crucified One, you have been here before.
Sustain us with your presence.

Give us the wholeheartedness
to mourn our brokenness
and then to rise and get to work.
Give us the resilience to stay faithful,
even in the shadow of evil,
to do justice and to love mercy.

Loving One, lead us.
Redeem our fear, redirect our despair
and revive our spirits.
Give us hope and dissatisfaction.
Give us strength and patience.
Give us humility and courage.
Give us love that will not quit
in the face of evil.
Be among us, be with us, be in us.

Faithful God, hold our hearts in yours,
and grant us your peace.
Amen.

__________________
Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
www.unfoldinglight.net

January 11, 2021

A voice came from heaven,
“You are my Child, the Beloved;
with you I am well pleased.”
And the Spirit immediately drove him
out into the wilderness.
—Mark. 1.11-12

Birthed into a troubled world
that needs you,

honored with the burden
of glory that is not yours,

hearing the blessing from above
you have to retreat to hear it within.

The word drives you out
into solitude where you are only you,

beloved, and must free yourself
from being otherwise.

Only in the wilderness of your aloneness
can you become who you are—

there, and in the press of the world ‘s need.
Baptism is no get out of jail card.

It’s empowerment to go in
and set the prisoners free.

For this you will need your belovedness.
Go to where that’s all that matters

so you will have such blessing
that it overflows where it is needed.

__________________
Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
www.unfoldinglight.net

January 8, 2021

Just as he was coming up out of the water,
he saw the heavens torn apart
and the Spirit descending like a dove on him.
—Mark 1.10

Underwater it’s quiet.
Deep in God you hear your heart beat
and the Great Silence of the universe.

Only when you come up
do you hear the roar of the world.
Bring the silence with you.

God’s waters break,
the heavens’ womb opens
and you emerge into a wound

torn more than the waters.
Only the divine silence
overcomes the world’s noise.

The Spirit, dove of listening,
descends, and bears you gently
through this torn, raging world.

“The realm of heaven has suffered violence,”
Jesus says, “and the violent take it by force.”
But they needn’t storm the ramparts

of God’s heart torn open,
where we already are.
Life is both an emerging and an entering,

a birthing, from love, into love,
a binding of the wound.
Bring the silence with you.

__________________
Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
www.unfoldinglight.net

January 7, 2021